In conclusion . . .

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I feel like this should be either a spectacular or life-changing post, but truthfully,  I’m not sure it’s going to be either.  I just want to share my heart during these last days in Ecuador and the jumble of emotions I feel inside.  Here you go.

Excitement

  • Family and Friends: Of course I am looking forward to seeing family and friends that are 3-D, instead of 2-D on my computer.  It wil also be wonderful to get together with family and friends on a regular basis and be able to live life together.
  • Hannah: I have missed my dog terribly during my time here and am thoroughly looking forward to having her back in my life when I return to the U.S.  She is 12 years old now, but I am hoping we can enjoy our time together like we did before by walking, hanging out in parks, and driving in the car together.  I am so excited to see little Hannah.

    Yes, this is part of my family: dad, mom and niece.

    Yes, this is part of my family: dad, mom and niece.

  • School and Students: I am happy to return to Robinson where I taught 6 years prior to my time in Ecuador.  I feel like this is a blessing and I am excited to return to the comfort of being back at this wonderful school.  I will be teaching fifth grade and I cannot wait to have some of the students I taught when I was their teacher in first grade.  Fun!
  • Apartment: I am excited about the apartment I am moving into when I return to St. Louis.  The main reason is because it is located less than a mile from my school.  Therefore, I will be able to walk to and from work.  Yay!  After realizing how much I enjoyed walking in Ecuador, I wanted to continue this when I return.
  • Baseball: I don’t know if I ever thought this would make my list of things to be excited about, but I look forward to seeing and hearing about baseball.  Of course I am a Cardinals fan, but I think more than anything I am looking forward to the cultural aspect of the sport of baseball because it truly is one representation of our American culture.
  • Seasons: I have missed having four seasons.  At least, right now I miss it. While it has been nice to have predictable weather everyday, I miss changing seasons and the correlation seasons and holidays have throughout the year.  So, when I am complaining this winter about how cold it is, remind me that something I was looking forward to were seasons.

Sadness

  • Friendships: Thankfully, I have made three wonderful friends here; Cesar, Paty, and Soraida.  In addition, I have met incredible volunteers and directors from WorldTeach, as well as people at my school whom I absolutely adore.  Fortunately (and unfortunately), I have really gotten to know the teachers and secretaries at my school better in the past month or so, which is one of the reasons it is so difficult to think about leaving so soon.

    Here is a picture of me with my students after they presented the country of Mexico during a fair at our school.

    Here is a picture of me with my students after teaching others about Mexico during a fair at our school.

  • Spanish: It is no secret that Spanish has been a challenge for me during my time here.  However, I am sad that I won’t likely be able to struggle through Spanish conversations on a daily basis once I return to the U.S.  Even though it has been hard, I will miss hearing Spanish on a daily basis.
  • School: The school I have been teaching at in Riobamba is amazing.  The culture of the school is fun and relaxed, which has made it a pleasure for me the past 8 months.  Not only are the classes dynamic, but we provide extra activities for the students to enjoy as well.  As a result of the amazing things that take place at my school, I am going to miss it a lot.
  • Students: A direct extension of the school are the outstanding students I have worked with during my time in Ecuador.  Of course there have been difficult times in my classes, but overall, I have loved learning with and getting to know my students.  They are fun and sweet and have welcomed their foreign teacher with open arms – even if I am too serious at times and don’t let us play games during the entire class period. (This is a common complaint from my students.  What is wrong with me?!?)
  • Walking: As you know, I have enjoyed walking to and from places in Ecuador.  When I commute by foot in Riobamba, there is always something interesting happening.  This might be someone selling food or drinks, a pharmacy having a sale with music blaring, an appliance store having a sale with a man on stilts outside to attract customers, a fruit truck selling fruit with a loud speaker or a laundry truck playing lullaby.  It is always an adventure – and I’m really going to miss it.

Nervousness

  • School: Ok . . . remember that I am excited to return to Robinson, right?  I am also nervous.  I have never taught fifth grade and don’t know what to fully expect from the curriculum or my students – yet.  I know that over time this will get better, but I am slightly nervous about the change at the moment.

    Here is little Hannah.  She is 12 years old now.

    Here is little Hannah. She is 12 years old now.

  • Friendships: Some of my friendships from the U.S. have changed since I have been in Ecuador and will not be the same when I return.  Therefore, I am nervous about what my friendships will look like and if I will have people to spend time with – or who will want to spend time with me!  But, I am also trying to look at this transition as an opportunity to meet new people and share the new parts of me that have developed in Ecuador.
  • Aging Dog: Of course I am excited to see Hannah, but I am nervous about her age.  Like I said, she is 12 years old and I do have some worry about how her health will be in the future.  I think that this worry has recently come about because the dog that I was living with here in Ecuador just passed away on Saturday.  Therefore, I have some nervousness about what Hannah’s future will be like when I return.
  • Church: My church in St. Louis is wonderful and has been during the several years I have been attending.  However, because I am moving to a new apartment, there is a church (still the same church, just a different location) that is closer to where I will live.  Therefore, I am nervous as to what it will look like to transition to a different location and don’t know what to expect with this change.

Familiarity

  • Family: How nice it will be to have family nearby when I return.  I look forward to this immensely.  Also, it will be nice to celebrate family events together, take my niece and nephew out, and meet family for dinner on a regular basis.
  • School: Again, what a blessing it is for my heart to return to the same elementary school I left last year.  One of the reasons I want to return is because the school community is amazing – we have incredible students and families.  Another reason is because the principal of my school is wonderful and encourages me to learn and become a better teacher.  I desire nothing more than to be back at this school for the upcoming school year.english
  • Dog: I know . . . Hannah is rather popular in this post.  However, I look forward to resuming our daily walks and enjoying the company of my sweet dog.  By the way, I have to give a HUGE thank you to my friend, Christina, and her family for taking amazing care of Hannah while I have been away.  They have truly been a lifesaver  and have kept me at peace during times of worry about my dog.
  • English: Whew . . . I will actually understand all of the conversations, television, music, and other forms of communication around me.  Although I am confident I will miss hearing Spanish, there is comfort in understanding 100% of the communication I am exposed to.

Dread

  • Driving: As many of you have heard, I do not miss driving at all.  First off, I have not driven for 6 months, so watch out!  Secondly, I love being able to hop in a taxi if I need a ride somewhere and not having any stress related to driving.  Therefore, I am not looking forward to driving when I return, but am sure it will be fine once I get back into the routine of tackling the roads in St. Louis.

    I hope this isn't my first reaction to driving!

    I hope this isn’t my first reaction to driving!

  • Price Shock: Ecuador is pretty inexpensive, as a whole.  And Riobamba is even cheaper.  I am used to paying $1 for a taxi, 64 cents for a soda, 35 cents for Oreos, $3 for lunch, 40 cents for bottled water, 20 cents for my favorite new snack, Palomitas, and so on.  Now do you see why I am going to experience price shock when I return?  Eek.
  • Food and Grocery Shopping: I’ve been a little spoiled because someone cooks lunch for me everyday and I don’t ever have to grocery shop or make meals for myself (other than bread or oatmeal, on occasion).  Granted, I do pay for this luxury, but I am not particularly looking forward to having to start cooking and shopping for myself.  No wonder I have had some extra time on my hands while I have been here!
  • Taking out the Trash: Ok, another luxury.  I never have to take out the trash here . . . it is always done for me, which is another pleasure.  I guess I need to come back to reality and take care of my own trash when I return.  Bummer.

Uncertainty

  • School: Even though I am returning to a familiar school and environment, I don’t know what it will be like returning with my questionEcuadorian teaching experience.  How will this impact my teaching and students?  I have no idea, but I hope it will do so in a positive way.
  • Relationships: What will my relationships be like with friends and family who can’t fully understand my experience in Ecuador?  I know that some people will want to hear about my time in Ecuador, but no one is really going to “get it” except those who have lived abroad for an extended period of time.  Will this be hard having few people to relate to my experience or will this be a good thing?
  • Spanish: What will it be like to hear virtually no Spanish after being exposed to it on a daily basis for the past 10 months?  Will I forget everything I have learned or will I find opportunities to continue learning Spanish through classes or connecting with other Spanish speakers?
  • Blending In: If you’ve read my blog for awhile, you know that I battle with looking different than a majority of the people I live with and come into contact with in Riobamba.  However, I wonder what it will be like to return to an environment where I am just like everyone else.  Will it be weird to fit in again?  Will I miss being different?  After all, when I visited Chimborazo last weekend, two groups of Ecuadorians wanted to take pictures with me just because I was a foreigner.  How silly, but sometimes it’s kind of funny too.
  • Traveling: As I have mentioned previously, it is incredibly easy and inexpensive to travel in Ecuador.  I love picking-up and leaving for the weekend to travel by bus to random cities across the country.  I wonder what it will be like not having that same ease of travel and knowing that it will not be as feasible to travel as it has been here.  Will I miss it or will I make it a priority to take more trips knowing that I enjoyed it in Ecuador and have learned that I want to explore more of the U.S.?

So . . . that’s it!  I know it was a lot.  Remember I said I had a jumble of feelings about my transition in a few, short days?  I hope that now you have a glimpse of why this is difficult for me.  While this will probably be my last post while I am in Ecuador, I will write about my transition back to the U.S. at some point in the near future.   Thanks for sticking with me on this journey.

 

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19 responses »

  1. I can’t wait to hang out with you and I love hearing all your stories!! I love how you shared all of your emotions/feelings with us.

  2. I’m sure it will be a huge transition coming back to the states. Just be patient with yourself during the transition. Enjoy the little things. You will do great! As for teaching something new this year, 5th grade, you will be fabulous. Your travels will just enrich your ability to teach as you have a new perspective on things. I wish you all the best in this new phase!

  3. What a wonderful last post from Ecuador, Rachael! It’s comforting for you to share your mixed emotions so honestly and just know that you have so many friends and family that are in STL to welcome you back with open arms as you return. So many of the things you expressed are going on in my mind too as we prepare for our move to Seattle. I definitely hope we can cross paths soon enough and wanted to wish you safe travels back. Robinson is so lucky to have you again!

    • Leah . . . I cannot believe you are leaving Robinson when I am coming back. 😦 I really enjoyed getting to know you a bit last year and like you said, maybe our paths will cross again. I wish you the absolute best Leah . . . keep in touch.

  4. Hi there! 🙂
    Thanks for sharing! Anticipate that the only constant is change and things might look/be different when you go back to the States.,. And that is not necessarilly bad… Most of it will be bc this experience have given you a different perspective… a wider one 🙂
    You might miss places and people but in the same way you did in Ecuador ‘enjoy the moment’ :)… After all we are only habitants of this Earth but citizens of Heaven!! 🙂 Un fuerte abrazo!! Take care!!

  5. Well, I have thoroughly enjoyed your blog while you were in Ecuador. I’m most curious about how it will feel for you to get back into the swing of things in the U.S.. Even for the short period of time that I was in Guatemala, I sensed it was a much slower-paced, relationally-based society. Different from here in the U.S. It’s funny how God made us with the amazing ability to survive, adapt, then thrive. No matter what the circumstances. We have been wonderfully stitched together, haven’t we! I’m impressed that you have taken the time and had the courage to follow your dreams! I think that is cool. But it will be fun to have coffee again. See you soon – aka, moving day!

    • Hi Rob! Thank you for being such a faithful follower of my blog. It was always nice for me to feel like you were with me, even though you were miles away. I have always been thankful to have you as a friend. See you on Sunday. Love Rachael

  6. Rachael,
    Thank you for sharing your blog with me. I read every single one, with excitement. What an amazing person you are to live out one of your dreams. Robinson is so lucky to have you back next year. Welcome home and have a safe trip. Linda Scanlon

    • Aww . . . you are so sweet Linda. Thank you for reading my posts. That means a lot. And, you have to know that sometimes what got me through the difficult times were the note cards that you wrote to me . . . they meant so much to my heart. I particularly liked the joke about Lady Gaga . . . it still makes me smile. Thank you. See you soon. Love Rachael

  7. Rachel, mi amiga, yo estoy muy contenta para ir a la casa! Can’t wait to chat with you in English and in person! Safe travels home and hope to see you REAL soon!

    • Gracias mi amiga. I have loved being in touch with you during my time away . . . thank you for being a consistent person to communicate with. 🙂 I look forward to living close to you in a few, short days. See you soon! Love Rachael

  8. Rachael, I have loved following your blog and keeping in touch with what you were thinking and doing. Most of my responses were lost, unfortunately, because I tout all I had to do was tap “return key” and discovered, way too late that I had to “post comment”! Pretty sad commentary for a library media specialist! We cannot wait to see your smiling face every day at Robinson. We will all help you in 5th grade – you will be a rockstar teacher, as always. On the plus side, they can all tie their shoes and read 🙂

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